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Sep 10, 05
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well after nearly 5 years of crystal addiction im still as honest and out of the closet about it as i have always been.. and through trial and error up untill about 6 months ago i had always been able to quit at will even if it only lasted a short amount of time.. i could stop myself. id like to state 2 facts:
1) i have lost that ability and do see that it had taken over me and the importance of regaining controll of substance abuse.. 2) my goal; to quit. 
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Sep 11, 05
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Would you mind if I asked you how often you are using these days?
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Sep 11, 05
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The 15th of September will be my one month of being totally clean.
All you need to know is that it can be done. All the people and places are there to help you, all you need is that little bit of will to get you there.
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Oct 02, 05
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I wish you the best in trying to quit....
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Oct 02, 05
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this thread just made me cry, wow, good luck. I know its hard, I've been there, but I've been clean for almost a year, you can do it. i send sympathy your way and hope you get through this.
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Oct 02, 05
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Stay Strong Strive
The only answer is to help our children say "NO" to escape and "YES" to life. As Ghandi said we need to become the change we want to see. We need to role model living life to the fullest and having the "highs" from personal development and demonstrating commitment to making a difference for others. May the Creator fill your day with gentle blessings.
People spend a lifetime searching for happiness; looking for peace. They chase idle dreams, addictions, religions, even other people, hoping to fill the emptiness that plagues them. The irony is the only place they ever needed to search was within. ~ R. Anderson CRYSTAL METH If my glamorous lifestyle is appealing to you And you want to try me cause you’ve nothing to lose Then I must offer you a bit of advice You’re a fool and better think twice. I destroy homes, I tear families apart I take your children and that’s just a start I’m more valuable than diamonds And more precious then gold The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold I live around you in school and in town I live with the rich and live with the poor I live just down the street and maybe next door I’m made in a lab, but not like you think I can be made under your kitchen sink Or even in your child’s closet or out in the woods If this scares you to death then it certainly should I have more names, but this is the one you’ll know best I’m sure you’ve heard of me My name is Crystal Meth My power is awesome Try me you’ll see But if you do You may never be free Try me just once and I might let you go But if you try me twice, then I own your soul When I possess you You’ll steal and you’ll lie You’ll do what you have to Just to get high The crimes you’ll commit for my narcotic charms Will be worth the pleasures you’ll feel in your arms You’ll lie to your family You’ll steal from your Mom and Dad When you see their tears you won’t even be sad Forget your morals, and how you were raised I’ll be your conscience, I’ll show you my ways I’ll take kids from parents I’ll take parents from kids I’ll turn people from (Creator) God And separate friends I’ll take everything from you Your good looks, your pride I’ll be with you always, right by your side You’ll give up everything, your family and home I’ll take and I’ll take till you have no more to give When I finish with you, you’ll be lucky to live If you tried me be warned, this is not just a game Given the chance and I’ll drive you insane I’ll own you completely Your soul will be mine The nightmares I’ll give you While you’re lying there in bed The voices you hear will be in your head The sweats, the shakes, the visions you’ll see I want you to know these gifts are from me But you came to me, not I to you You knew this would happen How many times were you told? My power is awesome I told you before I can take anyone and make them a whore Go ahead and curse me with every breath Just make your choice Will it be for life? Or will it be meth? You’ll take unknown paths on your journey through life Some will bring happiness, some will bring strife But my path is one you should not cross Although it is well taken Many lives will be lost Now that you’ve met me what will you do Will you try me or not, it’s all up to you I can show you more misery than words can tell Come take my hand, I’ll lead you to HELL! ~ Author Unknown
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Oct 02, 05
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^^ Woah.. that last bit is so true. (But there are a few people who are able to keep their morals/values and not steal.)
vivabutterfly - Oh hun.. at least you never tried to hide your addiction, my friends who tried to usually ended up worse off then my friends who were open about it. :( I was addicted to meth for a long time, always went back to it- but am proud to say it's been over 2 1/2 years. It may be hard at first but it does get easier with time. The first step to ending any addiction is to admit it to yourself, and reading your last post shows me that you are. I wish you much luck and strength with this. You seem like a very stubborn girl, and this will work in your favour once you've set yourself in motion I believe. :) Feel free to add me to msn or PM me if you want to talk.
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Oct 02, 05
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reminds me of myself, i need to slow down on drugs this is my fifth day of being on e, and it's never enough anymore. i'm making it a mission to quit for a while this week, just until i can feel some seratonin rebuilding in my brain.
and even though free drugs, and a slew of acids/shrooms/caps are thrown at you, remember you only have one brain and you have to use those cells wisely. it's like a fat kid going into a candy store, and eating everything. it's just wrong! and kind of disguisting. but the kid is tempted and goes ahead and eats all the candy, then he's fat. same with me, except i'm not fat on candy, i'm tripping on e, and that's even worse... some heart to heart love dude, please don't let yourself sink any deeper into the drug hole. i've been the meth addict (VERY REGRETFULLY) and life's crazy, but you just gotta keep on treading through it, without a ton of drugs lining the path.
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Oct 05, 05
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Why the fuck are their like 6 different posts by you on my account Leah...And when the fuck was this lol...I can't even remember ever being on a computer that you owned:S...Wierd
I love you though...And I believe in you that you can quit and get rid of the bad habit:) You ever need anyone to talk to you have my number:)
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Oct 05, 05
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wow guess what.. im 5 weeks sober today :)
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Oct 08, 05
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yay.... wed will make it 6 weeks!! this is so hard but its noooo worth it.. im po proud of myself :)
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Oct 09, 05
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Great job, keep it up! It sounds like you have probably made it through the most difficult part.
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Oct 11, 05
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i wanna relapse so badly lol.. but that would just defeat the purpose of the last 6 weeks of work.. so i guess it aint worth it..
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Oct 11, 05
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Just keep strong and remind yourself that relapsing is not worth all the work you've already put in and will have to put in again. And also, keep in mind that you're worth it (being clean that is). :)
Trust me, the longer you're off it the easier it gets.
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Oct 11, 05
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true but NOW i still cant sleep and have ADHD to dealwith. plus i wanna get high SO BADLY.
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Oct 17, 05
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well its week 7 on wed... still goin strong.. its odd how the first 5 weeks were hard.. yet seemingly easy compared to how bad withdrawl symptoms are now... im jonesing like a motherfucker
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Oct 17, 05
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post it send it, read it , live it. STAY STRONG STRIVE, its good to be alive.
The only answer is to help our children say "NO" to escape and "YES" to life. As Ghandi said we need to become the change we want to see. We need to role model living life to the fullest and having the "highs" from personal development and demonstrating commitment to making a difference for others. May the Creator fill your day with gentle blessings.
People spend a lifetime searching for happiness; looking for peace. They chase idle dreams, addictions, religions, even other people, hoping to fill the emptiness that plagues them. The irony is the only place they ever needed to search was within. ~ R. Anderson CRYSTAL METH If my glamorous lifestyle is appealing to you And you want to try me cause you’ve nothing to lose Then I must offer you a bit of advice You’re a fool and better think twice. I destroy homes, I tear families apart I take your children and that’s just a start I’m more valuable than diamonds And more precious then gold The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold I live around you in school and in town I live with the rich and live with the poor I live just down the street and maybe next door I’m made in a lab, but not like you think I can be made under your kitchen sink Or even in your child’s closet or out in the woods If this scares you to death then it certainly should I have more names, but this is the one you’ll know best I’m sure you’ve heard of me My name is Crystal Meth My power is awesome Try me you’ll see But if you do You may never be free Try me just once and I might let you go But if you try me twice, then I own your soul When I possess you You’ll steal and you’ll lie You’ll do what you have to Just to get high The crimes you’ll commit for my narcotic charms Will be worth the pleasures you’ll feel in your arms You’ll lie to your family You’ll steal from your Mom and Dad When you see their tears you won’t even be sad Forget your morals, and how you were raised I’ll be your conscience, I’ll show you my ways I’ll take kids from parents I’ll take parents from kids I’ll turn people from (Creator) God And separate friends I’ll take everything from you Your good looks, your pride I’ll be with you always, right by your side You’ll give up everything, your family and home I’ll take and I’ll take till you have no more to give When I finish with you, you’ll be lucky to live If you tried me be warned, this is not just a game Given the chance and I’ll drive you insane I’ll own you completely Your soul will be mine The nightmares I’ll give you While you’re lying there in bed The voices you hear will be in your head The sweats, the shakes, the visions you’ll see I want you to know these gifts are from me But you came to me, not I to you You knew this would happen How many times were you told? My power is awesome I told you before I can take anyone and make them a whore Go ahead and curse me with every breath Just make your choice Will it be for life? Or will it be meth? You’ll take unknown paths on your journey through life Some will bring happiness, some will bring strife But my path is one you should not cross Although it is well taken Many lives will be lost Now that you’ve met me what will you do Will you try me or not, it’s all up to you I can show you more misery than words can tell Come take my hand, I’ll lead you to HELL! ~ Author Unknown
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Oct 17, 05
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you should find a new vice to kick ur old one.. get involved in a hobby regularly (sports are a good counter for your situation).. something that can grasp alot of your attention, and require you to physically adhere to it.
the best way to keep something off your mind, is to distract yourself with something else. this shouldnt come as a surprise. gl on a sidenot id give you good karma for your efforts, but i've already given you bad karma today for the poor lyrics in your sig
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Oct 18, 05
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much respect + love for all the heads killn dem demons-
i hit 8 months clean+sober last week (after a 12 year bender) i had to go the detox/daytox/lifetox/treatment/aftercare route, and was and is hell from time to time. if any all yall need an understanding ear, feel free to give me a buzz Will sing to for food Times whirlwind gots me singn dem bluez, Nostalgia’s echoes, life’s headline newz, Of family, friends, strangers and foez, Of tall tales, misadventures and woez, Memories lyrics, plucking strings of past event, Tickling loves reed, smashing drums of lament, This is my tune, my orchestra of chaos, Blowing times horn, composing my life’s loss.
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