the anti drug _ life as i live it is a drug

Ms.Tarantula · #1 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

the night before milkshake... ( last friday) i stayed up all night on 4 red bull caps... then spent a sketchy day moving and visiting my dying and bleeding grandfauther in the hospital.. i became bitter very fast. by the time i was headed to the party... i was in ''fuck plur'' mode... and have been ever since. just before going into the party, i poped a 'tan mushrrom'' cap... whoa... some STRONG SIHIT... but i ws miserable and intended ongettingmangled... so i ate a bunch of mushrooms... no.. still not enugh.. smoked a bunch of weed... ate a bunch of acid... danced a little. no... not mangled enugh yet. time for some mdma and jib up the nose.. there yet?? HELL no!! ayo for yayo? i think SO! did that up for about 2 hours straight.... what? time to go? whats that?? free cap? ok! the pink star and all the various drugs during the day didnt help me sleep sun.. mon i slept a full night... then tues... omg omg tues night... i ate more mushrooms then ive ever seen all at once before.. so.. no sleep wed either... packing all fucking night... now.. its thusday... lets pop a cap! :) goodbye, red bull !!! whats that?? funk me is tomorrow??? ok!! c u there.

LsD_TrIp · #2 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

take it easy

decypher · #3 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

This is why hard drugs are bad in the hands of young people. They are unresearched in the topic, and use drugs as a method to make a bad situation better, only for a little time i'll warn you..This is a dangerous path u dont wanna take.. i've been there before, especially with the dying relatives. And the choices i made when times were tough will stick with me forever. You can't just get so high and fucked up that u dont think about the people around you, or the situations your in. Its a plastic and quick solution. and will only lead to a point where u can't go out and hang out with people unless your fucked up. To the point you'll lie to the people who care about you the most. You'll even lie to yourself, you'll spend all your money u have. Also if u go really hardcore for a long time. you'll have bad chest pains, anxiety, paranoia, eating disorders, despression, mood swings, tremours.. need i go on? i dont mean to sound like an after school lecture. you make your own choices. But dealing with your problems sober and regulating things in your life will make you a happier person, and your body/mind will thank you in the long run.

EDIT: ***** I'd smack around someone for giving coke to a girl your age..****

Tux · #4 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

whoa.. if ur gonna do drugs at least do so responsibly and in moderation.. keep it up and u could be tha next fool to end up ODing at a massive, and screwing up the scene for the rest of us

robyn · #5 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

And the point of this thread was?

ps: Slow down, young raver.

stringbeans · #6 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

this is the best... KEEP THE FUNK ALIVE GIRLFRIEND

LsD_TrIp · #7 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

I am honestly surprised you didnt OD and glad too, but please for all of us here it will not help your situation.. just make it worse you need not hurt others around you because basically if you get hooked on stuff like this very soon you will be the one in that bed having others looking down on you.

Ms.Tarantula · #8 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

mabye i didnt explain myself well enugh... im not undereducated ot dont rialise what im doing to myself... i've was addicted to coke 3 years ago, speed 2 years ago and regretfully again 10 months ago... i have overdosed before and i do know that hdiding behind drigs doesnt fix anything blah blah blah... - i just wanted to share my crazy week with everyone... i dont need anyone to lecture or worry about me.. im not going to pull the whole ''im fine'' bit... cuz i'll be honest... im not.

tested01 · #9 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

that sucks man.

now THATS a fuckin chemical cocktail.woohoo.party on !!!

lets get FUCKED UP!!

Tux · #10 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

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Originally Posted by vivabutterfly

mabye i didnt explain myself well enugh... im not undereducated ot dont rialise what im doing to myself... i've was addicted to coke 3 years ago, speed 2 years ago and regretfully again 10 months ago... i have overdosed before and i do know that hdiding behind drigs doesnt fix anything blah blah blah... - i just wanted to share my crazy week with everyone... i dont need anyone to lecture or worry about me.. im not going to pull the whole ''im fine'' bit... cuz i'll be honest... im not.

addicted to coke at the age of 13?? ..rough

seriously you should get help or sumthin, or find someone you can talk to... cause at this rate its only a matter of time before you OD, and fuck yourself up permanently.

decypher · #11 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

well then you need some help then. Just because you were addicted doesen't give reason to continue on. its called a relapse, and you'll have many. Dont focus on the past, focus on the future and the AMAZING life you could have with a little hard work and a sober mind. Or at least learn to cut back and use moderation. Because what you wrote is serious. Not a game. Im not lecturing you, just concerned for you. by writing this thread you obviously want someone to empathasize with, and i do. I hope you figure things out. and talk to someone level headed.

cheebus420 · #12 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

Quote:

Originally Posted by decypher

This is why hard drugs are bad in the hands of young people. They are unresearched in the topic, and use drugs as a method to make a bad situation better, only for a little time i'll warn you..This is a dangerous path u dont wanna take.. i've been there before, especially with the dying relatives. And the choices i made when times were tough will stick with me forever. You can't just get so high and fucked up that u dont think about the people around you, or the situations your in. Its a plastic and quick solution. and will only lead to a point where u can't go out and hang out with people unless your fucked up. To the point you'll lie to the people who care about you the most. You'll even lie to yourself, you'll spend all your money u have. Also if u go really hardcore for a long time. you'll have bad chest pains, anxiety, paranoia, eating disorders, despression, mood swings, tremours.. need i go on? i dont mean to sound like an after school lecture. you make your own choices. But dealing with your problems sober and regulating things in your life will make you a happier person, and your body/mind will thank you in the long run.

EDIT: ***** I'd smack around someone for giving coke to a girl your age..****

I have to agree, the reason taking tons more MDMA the next day is doing NOTHING besides making you speedy isn't because it only works some days. It's because you only produce so much serotonin and when you deplete it all by popping a bunch of caps, you can't keep popping to feel good. You have to wait weeks for your supplies to replenish.
You shouldn't mix half the drugs you listed in that story, honeslty for your own safety I'd spend a few hours on erowid.org or dancesafe.org !

zarlon · #13 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

Quote:

Originally Posted by decypher

This is why hard drugs are bad in the hands of young people. They are unresearched in the topic, and use drugs as a method to make a bad situation better, only for a little time i'll warn you..This is a dangerous path u dont wanna take.. i've been there before, especially with the dying relatives. And the choices i made when times were tough will stick with me forever. You can't just get so high and fucked up that u dont think about the people around you, or the situations your in. Its a plastic and quick solution. and will only lead to a point where u can't go out and hang out with people unless your fucked up. To the point you'll lie to the people who care about you the most. You'll even lie to yourself, you'll spend all your money u have. Also if u go really hardcore for a long time. you'll have bad chest pains, anxiety, paranoia, eating disorders, despression, mood swings, tremours.. need i go on? i dont mean to sound like an after school lecture. you make your own choices. But dealing with your problems sober and regulating things in your life will make you a happier person, and your body/mind will thank you in the long run.

EDIT: ***** I'd smack around someone for giving coke to a girl your age..****

heh yeah drugs and dying relatives are bad news.

well hey. keep it on, try to not fuck yourself up too hard. i guess any advice i'll really give wll be moot anyways, cause people will do as they will no matter what. plus i KNOW i've done stupid fucking shit too no matter what my friends/confidants said.

just.. try to have fun and keep shit somewhat balanced, na'mean. i'm not going to lecture you, but as someone who knows what shit's like i can say.. pm me, or whatev'. i'll talk to you if you'd like. i barely have a life as it is.

it's the best i can do eh.

decypher · #14 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

i'll send some good karma your way viva once i can again :)

Ms.Tarantula · #15 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

yes well most of my life has been pretty rough...

i have overdosed before.. and although it sucks to say it... it was the most intence out of this world high i've ever experienced and i'd do it again if i could guarantee i wouldnt die.

im sick of the 'you should get help' lecture... ive tried. the support any one can promise is the same support they can use to take advantage of you with. why even begin a potentially hurtfull situation? how can i say i honesly NEED anyone else but myself? i cant because i dont. yes i am stubborn... yes i have issues... im a freak. go find a fucking leash.

robyn · #16 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

As much as you say you don't want help, this is a blatant cry for it.

decypher · #17 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

Quote:

Originally Posted by vivabutterfly

yes well most of my life has been pretty rough...

i have overdosed before.. and although it sucks to say it... it was the most intence out of this world high i've ever experienced and i'd do it again if i could guarantee i wouldnt die.

im sick of the 'you should get help' lecture... ive tried. the support any one can promise is the same support they can use to take advantage of you with. why even begin a potentially hurtfull situation? how can i say i honesly NEED anyone else but myself? i cant because i dont. yes i am stubborn... yes i have issues... im a freak. go find a fucking leash.

Well then be strong and do it for yourself. When your ready, your ready. i just hope the realization comes soon.

Rytalin · #18 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

4 caps???

why/how the fuck do kids even do this much?

are most presstabs really THAT bad now??

mapleleaf4ever · #19 (**permalink**) Apr 02, 04

Whoa... I've had a couple rough weekends kinda like that. Can't say I was overly impressed with myself for like 2 days after that. Felt all fucked up, fuzzy and slighly like I was a bystander in my head. Watch it... I'm not gonna lecture as I've done similar things. I'm hoping all the best that you make out good. :)

QuanNeur · #20 (**permalink**) Apr 03, 04

.. it's sort of a right-of-passage for some people. i used to describe it as gettiing as close to the edge of the cliff as possible, so that i'm just hanging from my bare finger tips, but without going over. so go on, get fucked every day if you like. be mad, and if you die then no worries, you'll be reincarnated as a beetle or something. chances are you'll be just fine.. the resilience of the human body is seriously underestimated. so welcome to the dark side. enjoy your stay!